9/27/09 part 2

Hey y'all.

I'm coming to ya right now from my local mall, where I set up my "studio" and produced a track before my program crashed on me :-(

It turned out pretty well, this is the first time I've worked with this completely mobile (and easy-to-put-together) setup.

After finnagling with some software and computer issues, I can pretty much now bring my musical world anywhere with me. This is something I've been hoping to be able to do for the longest time, and now I can do it, and be on true "Stevie Wonder" status.

Watch out world, Cliff is about to leave his mark!!! Baby steps y'all...

C.C.

9/27/09

So in a few weeks I'm gonna be moving, and I haven't packed up anything yet, lol. I think today would be a good time to start since my date to be out of the place and in my new place is the 17th.

Yesterday on my way home from my new place I saw a girl at the bus stop wearin' a halter top and some booty shorts. I mean, don't get me wrong, she was sexy as hell and wore the outfit very well, but inside my head I was just like "*smh* Why she need to do that? She's beautiful enough to still be able to turn heads without havin' to dress like she's workin' the track".

This isn't the first time I've seen that either. It just seems to me like ladies who have to dress like that out in public are tryin' wayyyy too damn hard, even if they are hot. I mean, maybe it's just me who has that opinion, but seriously... Ladies, ain't nothin' wrong with leaving a lil bit to the imagination... I'm just sayin'...

Until next time y'all

C.C.

9/25/09

Man, I ate too much today, lol. Pizza day at the job... and your boy loves pizza!

I just beat technology, again... let me explain...

Some of the software I use for stuff has files that are on a hard drive that is having connectivity problems. So what do I do, I mess with the names of the drives (changed the name of the malfunctioning drive to another name), get a SD memory card, and change the name of that to the name of the original malfunctioning drive, and BINGO... problem solved! :-)

Picked up some extra hours tomorrow, and it's about 12 midnight as I'm writing this right now.

Things are lookin' very much up!!!

PEACE

C.C.

9/23/09

I fell back in love with love today.

Love is the most wonderful thing ever if you open your mind and your heart to it, which it took me a little while to do because of some issues and some pain I was going through, but this is well worth it

Things have just been going right for me this week, so far. Maybe it's something in the air...

...no I'ma tell you what it was. It was me steppin' up and takin' action. That's the key to anything in life... ACTION

I still got a lot more action to take.

So what action are you taking?

9/22/09

Haven't been actively dating for quite awhile, for various reasons... mostly myself, to be honest.

It's time for your boy to get back into the loop and see what's out there. It's gonna be kinda weird because it's been awhile since I really focused energy on that, so I'm gonna be a bit rusty. I still got hope that it'll work out though.

In other news, music's coming along well, and I promise you'll be let in on the magic. My goal is to be able to take my music worldwide, and I think I'm on the right path to doin' that.

-Success
-Health
-Love

Damn I'm ambitious!!! ;-)

C.C.

9/21/09 - My first post in a while

So I haven't been a good blogger and have just let this sit for the longest...

So here's an update since about my last post (back somewhere in February, I think):

-I was waiting to start training at one job
-Got hired at a temporary spot
-Training started up three months later, so I left the temp spot and started training
-Completed the training for the "job" job and started as a probationary part-time
-Got into a situation at that job and had to resign (they'd have fired me)
-Got hired back at the temp spot, and that's where I'm at now
-Moving to a new spot next month
-Started working on a bunch of new music

So yeah, that's pretty much where I'm at, in a nutshell.

This weekend was not a good weekend for me, because my head went into a place where I was vulnerable... where I became that little weird kid who kept stumbling over his own feet whenever he tried to run toward something. All kinds of experiences where I failed at something emotionally came to the surface, right where my weak spot was exposed, and I could just feel myself start sinkin' into frustration, depression...

I mean, it didn't help that I actually did have legitimate fuel to these feelings with the unfortunate incident I got into which ended a potentially lucrative career for me. Then that became, "oh I shoulda did this" and "oh I shoulda did that" and "oh I shouldn'ta done that"... I've lost jobs, cars, money, a relationship, respect, and time over things I did that I coulda saved had I thought differently... I mean, everybody has those times where they make a risky decision and it ends up not paying off, but I feel like I've had a little too many of those... well, not a little too many, quite a few too many... I mean, I know it's not good to have so many regrets but damn, at a certain point it's like "can't a brotha get somethin' to work???".

Well, in any case, the feedback I got from most people basically told me something I've been told many times before "You're in your own way"...

...that tends to happen with me... a lot...

It's hard not to get caught up in my own way when I hurt from things that happened yesterday (so to speak). But it's something that's gonna need to be fixed if I'm ever gonna do anything big in life.

I found out over the weekend that I gained back half of the 40 pounds I had lost a year ago. I know it was the emotional eating... so today I started a diet. I know it's only the first day but I can feel a difference... not necessarily see but feel. I gotta keep this going so I can feel good about myself physically. More important than that though I need to start up a mental diet, especially after all the crap that my mind's been fed throughout most of my life... all kinda nonsense that put false messages in my subconscious... it needs to be fixed. My mental diet is gonna consist of positivity and discipline. I'm gonna engage in positive messages and things in life that I enjoy, yet fulfill my passion for creativity, but I'm also gonna make sure that I stick to things I need to stick to, such as my diet, my music, and also this blog. Wish me luck!!!

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PEACE

C.C.